Life Things, lifestyle, Uncategorized

Beneath The Blog

Hello, it’s Lau.

For the most part of this year, I’ve been silent..very silent. I didn’t ever intend for this to happen.

Last year, I was posting weekly and devoting all my time and passion into creating a blog I was proud of..And I did that. I can look through all of my posts in 2018, and I can see passion..so much passion. I was determined to make Honestlylau something I’d do for a lifetime, but as 2018 was ending, I got side tracked with just life.

I felt like I had no time for blogging, but in actual fact.. I had all the time in the world. I lost the motivation to create content, I have endlessly created and deleted posts because every idea I came up with, just wasn’t good enough.

So, through 2019. I stopped. Without another thought, I left this behind and started being an adult. My whole life changed around and blogging was just not what I wanted to do anymore.

Till one day, I deleted the app. But I never wanted to delete my blog, that was my game over. Deleting it would of been hours of dedication thrown away just because I lost motivation. And who knows if I would of gained it back later on. Months down the line, I could of rekindled this motivation and have this blog going again.

And that’s what I’ve done today. Rekindled my motivation.

This time last year, I lost my motivation. But now, I have it back and I hope you will join me.

Thank you.

Lau.

Life Things, Uncategorized

College Ends..Where Now?

Hello!

It’s Lau. And today I want to share with you my experience with college and where I’m going when it ends.

So, as I’m writing this I have less then a week left until I finished my course and I have to adventure out into the land of being an adult and I’m not sure I’m even ready.

I’ve been in college for two years and I can’t say they’ve been easy. At first, I never wanted to go to college. I already had enough of school and college was the last thing on my mind but I realised that because of my anxiety I can’t get a job so.. college it was.

I always knew I wanted to do SFX however the only course that was SFX was very hard to get on and it was almost impossible for me to get but that’s the one I am on now.

I went through a year of half hairdressing and half beauty therapy. I really didnt mind it, it was fun and I liked the teachers. But it wasn’t what I wanted to do.

Skip to the course I am on now, it’s the hightest level you can get on. And let me tell you, it’s so much work. Work experience, a lot of writing, an event. We haven’t had a lesson where we don’t work, in my old course most of it was like that.

But at the end I get a certificate which tell me I am certified to do media makeup, that’s a cool thing to accomplish.

But my last assignment is on Friday and we have to go in the following Monday just to make sure we have everything up-to-date.

So, when college ends..where am I going with my life?

My dream is to be earning money from what I love doing..blogging. However, I’m no where near close to even getting accepted to earn money through WordAds. But that’s doesn’t mean I’m going to stop trying.

Of course there is pressure on me to get a job from my father, which he understands nothing about my anxiety and thinks I’m making it all up because he believe I’m just lazy.

I’m sure everything will turn out okay, I still believe that.

I think I’m going to end this post here.

Thank you very much for reading, and I hope you enjoyed.

I will see you all tomorrow!

Lau x

Life Things

My Social Anxiety – Part Two

Hello! It’s Lau and today I want to make a continuation of a post I wrote around two weeks ago, My Social Anxiety.

If you haven’t read the post, I recommend you do. So, if you’re new here..Hello! I’m Lau and I have social anxiety. If you couldn’t tell by the title.

It’s a personal struggle I deal with, and it’s about time I let you know a little more about it.

So, my social anxiety is a little severe. Quite often I will be talking to someone and they will say “I have social anxiety but I’m not as bad as Lau”. Only in the past year have I seen it dramatically worsen, it’s the main reason I don’t leave the house unless I have to, like for college.

This year is come to the point that I don’t necessarily want to text anymore and phone calls are out of the question. I can’t even pay for things on my own, I ask my friend or my mum to do it for me. I just give them the money and wait for them.

It’s made life seem like I can never do stuff on my own, which I can’t. With this anxiety, I feel like I can’t get a job.

If I’m with other people, I can walk through a little crowd. And when we are past it, its a sigh of relief.

Living with social anxiety has its negatives but it has its rather strange positives.

  • Not leaving the house is the best part of your day.
  • When you’re out and having fun the anxiety slowly goes away.

I don’t quite know what point I’m trying to make, but that’s the end of the post.

Thank you so much for reading and I’ll see you all soon.

Lau x

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What’s On My Bucket List?

Hello! It’s Lau and today I want to talk about life goals. Throughout my life, their are certain things I would like to do before I pass. Today I will be sharing with you what they are and why I’d like to do them.

My Bucket List

  1. Shave my head.

I’ve been wanting to do this for a while now, I just want to experience it, maybe the day I’ll do it, I’ll really like it.

2. Become Successful

I’d really like to create a career and earn a living from something I love doing, it’s a huge goal of mine.

3. Try a Quesodilla

I just want to know what it tastes like, it sounds good.

4. Go To Another Country

I’ve never been out of Britain, I’ve kept in or around the same place. It would be nice to experience what is out there.

5. Work With a Brand.

The idea of a brand wanting to work with me is really cool, it would be a nice opportunity.

I will leave it at 5 and I will do more again soon!

Thank you so much for reading, and I will see you again soon.

Lau x